Catching Up….

It’s been awhile since I’ve wrote down my thoughts, I have to admit I’ve been busy lately. The Mist have been keeping me busy with a differcult task.. to find and recover thirteen black books of which no one really knows much about. This sorta disturbs me in away, but I will do my duty and carry the task out. We managed to find one, but it is currently in the hands of a escaped Thayan Wizard that was being held in Cormyr on charges. The Wizard fled into an abandoned prison and Purple Dragon teams have been out of contact, the area has been sealed of by the Purple Dragon and their wizards. I am using diplomacy to see if we can send a small group into the Prison to determine the fate of the original teams sent and see if we can capture the Wizard.

For now there is no progress…

I’ve managed to get a dossiar file on the Wizard we will be hunting, I will be sharing the information soon to the other members of the Mist. I’ve also engaged talks with a group of people that are experts on dealing with Thayan Wizards I am hoping they can help us with our little problem as well.

It seems Ama’al and Ilztonim have gone away so Ama’al can have her child in peace, I do hope the best for them and I get to see my friend’s soon. For now we must focus on our tasks and well for me other things such as a wedding.

I and my dearest Selinis are engaged, but we are planning to make things official in the next few weeks. I am excited and scared at the sametime maybe that is way it should be in matters like this. We will see I’m sure, Selinis is going through the same thing. For now I must be off to take care of a few things…

I damn the Sunlight…

Black Book Found….Maybe..

So the last few days have been interesting, I have Sovin sleeping at my home, she has been in a sleep like state since the evening after the meeting when she seemed to rescue someone. Not sure of all the details but it was almost like she was possessed or spellcasted upon. One thing is for sure she has made contact with one of the black books, perhaps it had something to do with her condition that evening. For now until Sovin wakes up my dancer and I will make sure she is comfortable.

Since the gathering I’ve put the word out about possible Drow infiltration going on in Neverwinter. Not the typical freed Drow we have been seeing an increase of, I’m talking about the true noble houses of the underdark. My operatives have their ears open to the whispers at the Mask and other places. I do hope the rumors I heard were not true and that those houses stay in their political strive in the underdark.

Things with my dancer have been going well. It seems she enjoys my feedings… especially on her. Though I don’t take too much from her, however it seems she gets a sort of pleasure from me drinking from her. I suppose I cannot lie when I say I do too, but it does help and I think she get sorta jealous if I go hunting. Beyond that I say we are doing well I am very happy with her and I cannot ask for a better partner. I do plan on surprising her soon….but the details to that will have to wait… she is waking up and I should attend to her…

Benefactor…

Well it has been an interesting few days at home. My dancer’s benefactor has come to town on business and I had the pleasure to meet him. My dancer seemed nervous, I assume because of my aggression towards this benefactor, I have no clue where he fits into the picture, I just know he was the one that protected my dancer from her captor. Though I suspect at one point the two were more then just friends, I saw that look clearly on the man’s face.

We invited him to the bonding ceremony, he said he will do his best to attend, in a way I do hope he makes it, I think Sel would be very happy about that. Speaking of the ceremony I am too waiting in anticipation for such a thing, I suppose it is because I love my dancer that much I want to be hers forever, and it is very possible we will be, and I hope the love never gets old… I would be very upset.

In other matters it seems the family is going through growing pains, some are having issues with others and I’ve been doing my best to handle it, I’m thankful for my dancer helping out quite a bit on the issues, I am not sure if I’m capable dealing with some. I think in the long run the family will be strong and closer then it was before. Right now I have an appointment at the Mask, it seems I have a job to handle there at the moment….

Bliss…

The last few days have been bliss. My dancer and I have been spending much needed time together, we talk, go for long walks around the forests, spend the nights melting into each other as we make love. I am happy I took the last few days off to enjoy this, we both needed it.

I did however take a small break and see what was going on around the city, my dancer was sleeping so I ‘snuck’ out. Ended up at the Moonstone Mask and decided to see what was going on. I have to say it was pretty quiet in there, just the usually crowd doing what they do best. I decided to leave but not before meeting an interesting person. I found a male Drow that was trying to hide from me as I walked by, but he failed to realize the pillar offered little to protect him from anyone’s sight.

The man didn’t speak common which was apparent when I asked him what he was up too. We had a conversation in our native tongue, I did not mind it is not often when I get to speak it. It was clear that he was new to the surface as he treated me with the respect he would a female in the underdark. I did not mind this because it was his way for now and I did not want to disrespect that or was I was just use to be calling ‘Mistress’ for the last few days… Either case I offered him some coin for a few nights stay and some meals, figured he will find his own way on the surface eventually.

For now I am going to get some rest, my dancer is out running her errands and I need to take advantage of this…..

Secrets Revealed….

It’s been a few days since I’ve had a moment to write here. I’ve been home for several days and never been happier about it. My dancer is very happy about it too. We’ve had many discussions since I’ve returned and some new milestones we have broken through.

The first one I like to say is that I presented my dancer a gift of marriage, I think… Bonding gift? I’m not really sure considering the of our relationship and the fact my dancer is another woman, we have yet to clear up the matter on how it will all work, but I have an idea to that. My love mention that in the South which she hails from often have bounding ceremonies for same sex couples, in Drow soceity it is common that women take any mate they prefer, I suppose legally it can work out, but I think this is a spiritual journey for both myself and love.

The gift wasn’t anything too fancy a collar with gems and diamonds with a rather large red gem handing from it. She seems to love it and wear it always. I presented the gift at on a date, in which I decided to take my dancer out in the forests for some quiet time and some dinner. The dinner which I cooked on my own… I spent that day learning to prepare food and cook for her. Sad to say that I cut myself more then once in learning so quickly, in the end my dancer seemed to enjoy the meal even though she said it needed more spice. I’ll have to remember that for the next time I cook for her. The rest of the evening was just spent in each others arms and discussing future plans it was really quite nice.

However as much fun we have been having we have been going through another Milestone. My dark secret… the other evening my love caught me drinking from the magically sealed jug I kept in the icebox. She caught me off guard and started getting curious to why I am keeping a drink a secret. At that moment I had no choice but to tell her the truth if I didn’t I know our love would crumble…and I don’t want to lose my dancer for anything in the world.

At first I didn’t come out and say it I sorta led up to it because dropping clues, eventually all came to light and she smiled at me and told me she still loved me. She also wondered why her shadows are deathly frightened of me. That night we spent in each others arms and talked about things, I told her what I was and we discussed it.

Today I like to say that my dear sweet dancer is happy to know what I really am and last night she offered herself to me in trust. I drank from the person I love the most in the world, she willing gave me her life blood for me to taste. It was very delicious and stimulating, granted I was afraid I would scare her off, but this was not the case, afterwards we discussed my needs and what is to be expected, it was a stimulating conversation to say the least. Personally I think we are strong for it.

I am sure she will have her worries about things but I will do my best to see to those needs as they arise, I think we will be stronger in our love without secrets. Speaking of secrets, last night at the gathering I announced I was getting married, everyone seemed shocked by that, but that was to be expected. I also gave Ama’al her gift for the unborn child, some clothes and little suit of armor. I believed I made her evening with such a gift.

Right now I need to head out into the city and go to the market for my love, she left me a shopping list. I suppose it had to start somewhere.

Back Home..

I’m finally home after my much needed hunting needed to be done. My dancer was very happy to see me, and I was very happy to see her. I did something romantic for her this evening, but I have to say it was a bit of embrassment to me, though my dancer seemed to enjoy such a thing. It was for her after all.

My dancer was not very happy I was gone for so long, I wish I could tell her what I was doing, but if I did I run the risk of losing her. Instead of talking about it, I decided to ask forgiveness in a very pleasing manner even though I owe my dancer a new shirt and pants. I don’t mind I wanted her and the clothes were in my way.

Afterwards in my lovers glow, I received a message that a new prospect was on their way to meet with me about mentorship. Grace was called away on other business and this person needed someone. I pleased to meet our newest prospect, Lyrus. A thief from Lurar she managed to survive by stealing, from what I understand she is very talented in such things. We sat outside and shared a light meal and talked about ourselves a bit, I found the experience enjoyable. I really do look forward to working with this person in the future.

Later that evening I and my dancer got comfortable in our living room and chatted. She asked me a very serious question that I have already thought about. I did look into the matter of two women being bound together and it seems there is nothing against far as I found out. Perhaps various cultures have their own take on such things. From what I understand my people don’t have such laws against it. Again I also know the women are in charge which is very interesting to me.

I’m very happy to know my dancer wants such a thing. I am sure in time we will. She did share with me a dark secret of hers but I always had a feeling she was never alone. Always being watched from the shadows, I do not fear such things I told her and I accept her for who she is and will never let anything happen to her. In a small way I think she told me this to see if I would say what I was up to the last few days. I do not think I can ever reveal that to her unless it is dire circumstances. However I will consider it in the future, mates should not keep things to themselves…

Currently my dancer is making us something to eat and I can start to smell it, she is a wonderful cook. I better go see if I can help or if it is time to eat…

I just hope she doesn’t question the small magical sealed jug on the self…

Blood and Jewels

This page like many inside her journal this on is stained with little drops of blood. It is unknown if it is humanoid or beast, it is clear the blood appears only on certain pages throughout the journal indicating it could be a random occurance or perhaps something more Dark…..

I never know what to say in times like these, each time I get the hunger I lose myself in its bloodlust until I have my fill for the day. I’ve tried so hard to fight the pain of not succumbing to my hunger that it overwhelms me each time, and each time I am afraid I will hurt or kill someone I know.

I can hear the villagers from here, can even see the lights of their torches, they are looking for a beast in the forest, one that has taken the life blood of their loved ones. They will not find such a beast in this forest, but they contiune on their struggle. It’s almost like a tradition for them now, this time they had sentries posted all around this time almost they were expecting this to happen.

Of course I will now need to find another place to hunt. Perhaps the next village, I am sure I can hunt there for a few years, before they wise up the same. Each time I take another victim I weep for them. I don’t take because I want to, I take for survival. I wish this curse never taken me, I regret many things I have done in recent years, but what can I do?

I miss her, my dancer. I miss holding her, kissing her, looking into her beautiful eyes. I miss our conversations already, I feel so alone without her close. I wonder if she can feel that from where she is. I see the moon above me but all I see is her face smiling at me. I want to smile back, but I feel disgust on what I have done and cannot bring myself to smile. These next few days will not be filled with joy or happiness…

Before I left Neverwinter I did speak to a jeweler to have a comission done for me. I do hope by the time I return it is done. I would like to give my dancer something for when I return. Though I am not sure if she will accept it, I pray she does. When I think about those things I wonder if I should tell her about this dark secret or should I keep it to myself. Eventually she may grow curious and follow me and see something I do not wish for her to see.

For now I cannot wonder such things, I must be off. I still have to much hunting and feeding to do before I return. Be safe my dancer I will return to you soon..

New Home…..

This evening was very enjoyable to say the least. My dancer and I have made a large step in our relationship… we have moved into a single home. I designed the home to reflect both our unqiue personalities. It has taken quite a bit of my time but it was well worth the effort. My dancer found the home acceptable, it is in Neverwinter close to the Moonstone Mask portal and her place of work.

We celebrated by enjoying a lovely meal she prepared in her new kitchen and we drank wine all night. She ended up passing out, she didn’t get much sleep the night before. I decided to write down tonight events. I have one more night with my dancer before I go for a few days. I will miss her and my ‘family’…

Thoughts and…Secrets…

I’ve been staring at this journal for hours unsure of what to put down. I know this helps with getting my thoughts out of my head and in the event I lose my memory again it will help me recover, but lately I’ve been distracted. The organization I oversee is getting larger and getting livelier. I suppose this is a good thing, more operatives in the field makes things much easier on the rest of the group and it has given me the chance to meet some interesting people.

Our festivial event went well, met and talked to many new to Neverwinter. We didn’t get that much information but we were successful in running a front and completing our task, I guess you can say I am proud of everyone involved. My dancer even shared a dance with people, though I was unable to see such a thing due to where I was stationed, but my dancer doesn’t know I shared my own dance with those I was around. Not sure why I did it, but it was acceptable at the time. People will be too drunk to remember it anyway.

Speaking of my dancer the other evening she gave me a gift. A beautiful and sweet gift that only my dancer would know it would make me happy. It was a collar with a spider emblem on it, it also serves as a protection device with a hidden blade. My dancer wants to protect me even when she is not around. I was a bit embrassed that I had no gift to share with her. I will think of one while I am away from the city for the next few days. In my effort to help ensure things running and spending time with my dancer I have been ignoring my darker side and it requires me to go for a few days while I ‘hunt’.

I have never shared my dark secret to no one except for Laersect and that was only to save his life. As I write this I worry of the consequences of my dancer finding out. She has gone through enough of her life that I just simply want to make her happy. She knows of my home, she knows the lich that resides in the depths of it, but that is all she knows. It is all I want her to know for now. It does pain me that I do not share my full self to her, but for once in my own life I am happy…

My Dancers gift to me…

New Home…New Tasks….

I’ve been spending my days working on a new home for me and my dancer. It’s a big step for the both of us, but I feel this is the right path. She doesn’t’ feel comfortable spending time in my home and I can understand that and her home is well her place of work as well. I think we deserve something more related to us. Plus we are both starting new it seems.

In other things going on, plans for our ‘Festivial’ are going well. I am looking forward to the reports and see what is going on aboard. I’m hoping everyone will pull thier weight, I do worry sometimes they don’t take things so seriously, perhaps I’m just too serious… Either way we all need to work together.

It seems that Rue has made contact with the man that is looking for the Black Books, I still need to speak to her to get her report on him. He is hot on the trail for one of them now, I’ve been observing his actions as of late, I don’t know who he is but there is something about him that doesn’t sit well with me. He is more then just another human in thick armor, just something. Perhaps Rue will have more answers for me.

For now I must get a few more things done, then I will see my dancer later on for some tea and conversation…